Shit gets real .

“WOW” defines my junior year . So many things have changed in just 180 days . We soaked in the good && coped with the bad . Our friendships grew closer && our Love grew stronger . We stuck to our promises && stood by each others sides . But most of all , we took on another year .. together .

I honestly didn’t think there was an end to my junior year . Each day was brutal ; waking up early , sitting in a desk for about an hour , && just trying to survive another day of school . All we waited for was the weekend , to get fucked up && do some crazy shit . We succeeded . We made our junior year one to remember . 

We managed to create a family , a family that is unbreakable , a family that i can count on for anything , the hundreds <3 . This Love is a “ONE OF A KIND” kind of love . 

Junior year was very different . We didn’t expect most of the things that happened to happen . Taking chances was what Junior year was about . It was about not caring what would happen next .. just take the risk && accept what will be there in the end . Because taking a chance was the next step to moving forward . There may be troubles && complications along the way , but fighting through them was just another step to take .

Even with the frustration && tears junior year brought , it also brought new happiness && stronger love .

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we get ourselves into situations that only make us confused . which leaves me with the understanding that i dont know what i want . your mind messes with you , your feelings mess with you , or are you just insane ? . you go crazy , only concentrating on what you really want in life , blocking out everything else that truly matters to you . once you think everything makes sense , you change your mind..or is it you change your feelings ? . i say , i’ll do what i do && when the time comes…this horrible thing we call confusion will finally make up its mind .

fuck it .

get to know me (:

i LOVE baby pigs && the sounds they make . Body pillows to hold when i sleep . avocados in my sandwiches . Nights i can’t remember (; . Babies/Little kids ALWAYS make me smile (: . Pink && teal are the prettiest colors . SPARKLY THINGS ! My best friends honestly do mean the world to me<3 . My heros are my dad && my aunty janel . I love Andrew Jenks , Paul Walker , && Albert Posis . I <3 guitarists . My favorite band is A day to remember ! . I love the winter time . Texting is my addiction . The little things in life are important to me . I think watching the sunrise is the most relaxing thing to do . To me , the stars are the most beautiful thing you can see at night . Late night drives are theeee BEST . Football gets me on feet . i love make up . Monsters , smoothies , frappes , && capri-suns are delicious . I think boy socks && boy v-necks are comfortable . i like to wear hoodies . i LOVE the pain you get after working out . i absolutely love pictures , its the best way to catch memories . the only books i like to read are any Nicholas Sparks novels . big parties are sooo much fun ! i love laughing til tears fall down my face . i love movies that make no sense at all , or actually just all movies . i love to write … but not essays . baking is always fun ! all flowers are gorgeous . victorias secret is the best store . i like to doodle when i get bored in class . sweet people are always on my good list . i like to listen to other peoples problems && see what they go through in life . Greys Anatomy is my favorite show . i trust only few people . i hate when people stare at my bare feet . ice cream && cheesecake are the best dessert out there . Hot steamy bubble baths are my favorite . i love people who look me in the eyes when i talk to them , shows they’re listening && respect what i have to say . i love french fries . my dream is to travel the world . i’m obsessed with california && the beach <3 . i constantly blink my eyes . i like to dress up for special occasions . i love to write my name in cursive . i love people who have enough respect for me to know that i’m worth every piece of the truth , no matter if its important or not . i love people who can trust me to tell me EVERYTHING . i constantly flip my hair back cause i hate it touching my neck most of the time . i hate writing in pencil . i love the sound a violin makes . i bruise easily . i HATE doing things myself :P . i <3 looking at the mountains that surround Vegas . i tend to hold grudges for a long time . IDGAF most of the time .

Love me or Hate me .

summer 2010 <3 .

its amazing how fast we all grow up . how fast life goes by, that everything happens in a blink of an eye . my summer ends now, but i can honestly say that this summer has been worth it ALL . its been worth getting grounded for . it as been the VERY first summer that i am satisfied with , even with the drama && confusion it came along with . From not knowing what to do that day , to fights with my mains ; to, of course , boy problems . from getting drunk every night && not remembering anything the next day , to crying because you’re stuck on some stupid shit . from the nights you regret , to the little secrets that keep a friendship , to forgetting the past && becoming friends again . EVERY LITTLE THING made this summer , a summer to remember forever<3 , my summer .

What i needed was closure , that one amazing apology that brought us close again . that apology to finally bring tears of joy that defined everything we “had” was not a lie , but then we tried to re-build our past which made what we tried to re-build , the real lie . which made me come to the conclusion that we’re better off as friends , good friends . && i couldn’t be any happier with that . we’ll just see what happens next .

this summer made me a wiser person . dont trust anyone , trust them .

Everything that happened this summer was like a slap in the face . it made me open my eyes to the people who are actually there for you , who are there to keep your head held high && to stand by your side when you’ve made so many mistakes . && i know exactly who those people are .

there are those asshole friends of yours , but everything that happened this summer made me realize that some of them turn out to be one of the sweetest people around , to turn out to be someone whos actually there for you , && someone to make you smile when you’ve had a rough day .&& then there are those people , who we call friends that hold grudges for the whole summer . But eventually they realized how stupid of a fight it was && they’d come back around , even if it takes a life time .

so many things this summer made it something special . so im going to soak it all in , live on , forget the past , && enjoy my junior year <3 .